Friday, January 18, 2013

Losing a Loved One

It started off as an ordinary day homeschooling with the children...

Other than the fact I had had a rough sleep last night, and subsequently awoke with a painful kink in my neck, all was well.

Then I got a phone call...

"I don't know how to tell you this, but so & so has passed away."


Numbness & sadness engulfed my heart all in one moment. A dear Aunt of mine, that I had only seen a few weeks ago, had passed away in her sleep.

The call ended. The shock continued as the facts began to settle in.

Of course this wasn't the first time I had lost a loved one, and I know it won't be the last, but each time the news arrives it always fills my heart with pain.

Pain for the loved ones left behind. Pain for the things left unsaid.

My daughter quickly asked me what was wrong; I told her that one of my relatives had died last night. She started to cry as well. We both wept together.

Then a gentle whisper entered my heart. Remember the words you just read before the call.

I had just 'happened' in my quiet time this morning to read a passage of scripture from Psalm 46. I re-opened my bible and read it again, this time my eyes overflowed with tears.

Psalm 46 (NIV)
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
8 Come and see what the Lord has done,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease
to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
he burns the shields with fire.
10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.

I find great comfort in these words. Peace begins to return to my heart in small waves. I begin to pray for the loved ones left behind with shattered hearts & dreams. My children & I discuss the afterlife that the bible so richly describes.
I text a few close friends asking for prayer for the extended family. Texts begin to come back offering prayer & support. I am so grateful for their love.
An ache is there & I know it will continue as we walk with my extended family through the grieving process...the funeral...the embraces...the shared memories of many celebrations long past...but I know in my heart the Great Comforter is there to walk with me...& with those who will reach out to Him & ask for it...
He is never more than a whisper away.

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